Well, here I am. I need to lose some weight. Ten pounds would be great, but 20-30 would be fantastic!! I would really like to look at the scale and see a "3" as the second number. It doesn't even matter if the last number is a "9" -- I just want to see that "3" in the middle slot.
Recently I had a bad case of bronchitis and went to the doctor -- this is the same family doctor I have been to since 1983 (give or take). I mentioned something about my weight (155 pounds at this point) and he had the nerve to look back in my chart and say "This time last year you were about 143 pounds....when you first started coming here you were 121 pounds." I should have said "What about you, buddy?? How much did you weigh 20 something years ago???" But I didn't....
I never had a weight problem growing up. My weight problems started in my early 20's when I became desperately unhappy and depressed and ate to fill some sort of void. The only times I have had my weight under control since then have been times when I was so emotionally stressed that I was on the verge of nervous breakdown, and when I had major surgery a few years ago.
John (husband) is always on my case to exercise. He is commited (spelling???) to exercise. My commitment comes and goes. Probably because I hate to exercise. It does not seem to work the same for me as it does for other people. I hear stories about how after exercising you will have so much more energy, will feel so much better -- bull!!! Not me -- I tried running 3 times a week. On those days I had to make sure I had everything done ahead of time; the cooking, errands, etc., because after running I was so exhausted and in a fog that I was worthless. The energy never came -- I felt worse on the days that I ran.
I found doing floor exercises (sit ups, push ups, that kind of thing) while watching television helped -- it took my mind off the fact that I was doing something I hated. Also, I seem to enjoy yoga more than actual exercise. But I never seem to stick to the floor exercise and/or yoga routine for long -- I start doing it every day or every other day, then stop. One thing I do manage to do is walk for 1/2 hr on my lunch break every workday (except for now, because I am on crutches -- see http://www.horsetalkindiana.blogspot.com/ for that story).
I do eat healthy. We do not eat fast food, we eat a lot of fruits and vegetables, and cook fresh food -- no pre-processed or packaged stuff. The problem is PORTIONS!!! Also, I LOVE junk food (Doritos, Cheetos, potato chips) and binge on those things once I get started. I actually crave this stuff and have to be very, very careful not to give in. I am not into sweets -- salty snacks are my downfall.
What I need to do is this:
1. Stick to some sort of exercise routine -- at least 30 minutes 3 times a week
2. Continue the lunchtime walks
3. Control dinner portions
It is going to be tough getting started right now, because of the crutches, but I may be able to manage some yoga, and I can definitely start on portion control.
Now that I have "gone public" with this, I have to do it.