Ok so I'm not camping, but its true that I'm not happy. I'm actually kinda pissed right now.
Three weeks ago today I slipped in the kitchen at work because one of the dishwasher's wasn't bright enough to realize that spraying water across the doorway is a BAD IDEA.
I was helping the waitresses clean up after the hockey team left and I didn't (couldn't!) see the water. I stepped, slipped and started to fall backwards. I really didn't think that another concussion would be a great idea for my poor head (and those kitchen floors are h-a-r-d!) so I threw myself forward toward the dish pit. I threw the dishes I was holding into the dish pit and grabbed onto the edges with both hands... and shouted a Very Bad Word. So in fact I never did actually fall, but I think it would have been better if I had.
You see as I forced myself forward instead of falling back I could feel, almost hear, the poor muscles in my back. And here, 3 weeks later, they are still letting me know that they are NOT happy.
I barely make it through my shift at work. I have hardly ridden at all. In fact I probably wouldn't except that my hips hurt less when I'm riding and while it doesn't really help my back muscles its not hurting them too bad either.
Worse, I have had to take a time out from the treadmill and any other exercise.
Worser (shhh... for today that will be a word!) is that between TOM and being an emotional eater I haven't been the best about what I'm eating. Too much chocolate, too much fatty/comfort foods. About the only good things are:
1) I am aware of what I'm doing with my eating instead of being in denial. Which means I need to give myself a stern talking to and get on with eating healthier.
2) Although not making the smartest food choices I'm not binging and eating huge portions of said dumb foods.
and finally 3) I know I've been pretty crabby and depressed about my back (funny thing, pain 24/7 tends to make a person crabby! lol) I know that mentally/emotionally at least I've turned a corner. One sign is that I had been avoiding blogs/email/etc and now I'm back and catching up. Another is that Pie is calling me "smartass" on a regular basis again so my sense of humour must be returning! lol