Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Not a happy camper

Ok so I'm not camping, but its true that I'm not happy. I'm actually kinda pissed right now.
Three weeks ago today I slipped in the kitchen at work because one of the dishwasher's wasn't bright enough to realize that spraying water across the doorway is a BAD IDEA.
I was helping the waitresses clean up after the hockey team left and I didn't (couldn't!) see the water. I stepped, slipped and started to fall backwards. I really didn't think that another concussion would be a great idea for my poor head (and those kitchen floors are h-a-r-d!) so I threw myself forward toward the dish pit. I threw the dishes I was holding into the dish pit and grabbed onto the edges with both hands... and shouted a Very Bad Word. So in fact I never did actually fall, but I think it would have been better if I had.
You see as I forced myself forward instead of falling back I could feel, almost hear, the poor muscles in my back. And here, 3 weeks later, they are still letting me know that they are NOT happy.
I barely make it through my shift at work. I have hardly ridden at all. In fact I probably wouldn't except that my hips hurt less when I'm riding and while it doesn't really help my back muscles its not hurting them too bad either.
Worse, I have had to take a time out from the treadmill and any other exercise.
Worser (shhh... for today that will be a word!) is that between TOM and being an emotional eater I haven't been the best about what I'm eating. Too much chocolate, too much fatty/comfort foods. About the only good things are:
1) I am aware of what I'm doing with my eating instead of being in denial. Which means I need to give myself a stern talking to and get on with eating healthier.
2) Although not making the smartest food choices I'm not binging and eating huge portions of said dumb foods.
and finally 3) I know I've been pretty crabby and depressed about my back (funny thing, pain 24/7 tends to make a person crabby! lol) I know that mentally/emotionally at least I've turned a corner. One sign is that I had been avoiding blogs/email/etc and now I'm back and catching up. Another is that Pie is calling me "smartass" on a regular basis again so my sense of humour must be returning! lol


oregonsunshine said...

I was in a similar mental state when I sprained my shoulder. I don't know that I've fully come out of the funk yet, but I will, soon. It seems to be taking some extra work.

I hope you heal soon!

oregonsunshine said...

Oh, and I agree with you about the pain 24/7. For those of us that suffer from chronic pain, it's a big hurdle to get over every. single. day.

I don't have any great mood lifting advice as I'm in a bit of a slump myself.

Laura said...

So that's why you've been so "quiet"... Make sense to me.

I'm also dealing with 24/7 pain - so I know where you are coming from. Although, I'm seeing a bit of light at the end of the tunnel...

The fact that your sense of humour is coming back is a good sign! Someone made a similar comment to me at work last week...

Hope things continue to look up for you ...

Flying Lily said...

Well who on earth leaves water puddles for people to skid on!! I think you did a great save of your head. Hope the healing continues.

Mrs Mom said...

Yep, you probably pulled the snot out of some muscles there girl. They take a while to heal, but they WILL heal. Pain. Sucks. I know all too well. If it weren't for my joint supplement, there are literally days when I'd not be able to get out of bed. (I take Flex-A-Min. And Thank God for it!!)

Glad you are back amongst us!! Kiss those spectacular ponies- it'll help perk you up ;)

Adventures of a Horse Crazed Mind said...

Oh crap! So sorry to hear you've hurt your back. But good to hear that your good humor is returning. Remember, we cant go backwards, we can only go forward so dont beat yourself up... just do your best today and tomorrow:)

Take it easy and I hope you are back to 100% soon.